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Post a new topicby eymand on Wed May 06, 2009 10:26 am

Hi all,

i think all of us are on the same boat.
I am a 20 yr old female, a medical student, an asian, currently studying in middle east. I started to developed bladder problem last year.

Before, i am a healthy person, i can hold my urine for the whole day without going to the toilet.
It started a year ago when my friends and I were trapped in a traffic jam for about an hour and half. we were on our way to a book fair. suddenly i need to go to the toilet but it seemed imposibble because of the traffic jam and i ended up wetting my pants as soon as we reached the book fair.

Then, two months after the incident, i started to urinate frequently. it became worst as i need to urinate during classes. i cant concentrate to the lecture because of the thought that i will be not able to make my way to the toilet on time. I started to feel dizzy, sweating, and anxious. I used to be a good student and always sat at the front of the lecture hall but now, my fav seat is at the back and near the door-so that i can make it on time next time. Its really depressing and i ended up skipping lectures for a month. and yes, my grades was dissappointing.

at first my classmate didnt help so much. i feel like theres nobody understand me and can help me.

Then i went to the doctor. and he prescribed me with OAB medication. But after a month or so, the symptoms come back and its getting worst. i do feel pain while urinate. so i went to the doctor again.
the doctor said that maybe i have something wrong with my reproduction system-explained my OAB, so he suggested a O&G specialist. so again, i went to the O&G clinic and he asked me to do some test.

i did the urine analysis and ultrasound. the ultrasound came out normal but the urine test showed some abnormalities and i am diagnosed with UTI so, my reproduction system was not the problem. its such a relieved! i thought that after the antibiotic treatment, everythings will be fine. and i am totally
wrong. but thank god that i endured my final exam. A-3 hours written exam for each subject(i took 4 subjects) without a visit to the toilet. But it was a depressing moment.

And during summer holidays last year, i went home and seek for local's doctor opinion because of the recurrent UTIs ( every 4-5 months)
and AGAIN, the tests came out normal!
and the doctor prescribed me with DETRUSITOL.

but it still continue. its been 2 yrs now. im so depressed because the exam is just around the corner and 3 hours per paper seems ridiculous to me. i feel weak, empty, depress, confuse.
i cant do anything. i still skipped a couple of clasees per week. ive become somewhat i call: anti-social. i just stayed at home. i cant do anything!

but i will not give up. this is me and i must live with it. and yes, sometims, i do feel like want to give up but i know thats not the solution.

i will keep on trying although its painful.

and i will pay my visit to the hospital toningt as my problem getting worst and the exam plus now i often wet my pants during sleep at night-bedwetting. so i need to see the doctor so that he can write a letter to my dean- i can get extra care during the exam, exp: a seat near the toilet.
wish me luck guys and i do miss my 'normal' life.
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