Female Sexual Dysfunction

[chiklady7]

i enjoyed masturbating as a teenager and used to get the usual powerful surges or desire, the kind that made me feel the pulse of my heart down in my vagina. i had sex at fourteen in an old shed, it was cold and hurt and i felt nothing. a year later i got involved in a two year relationship with an infant kind of boy that was obsessively jealous and constantly horny. if i didnt want sex he would get pissed so i ended up just letting him do his thing. it didnt feel good at all but he wanted me to look like i felt good so i started to fake orgasms. soon i could no longer feel any arousal at all, and since he was psycho i had no time to myself for masturbation. the relationship ended after i got pregnant, and i kicked him to the curb.
while pregnant i met a wonderful latino man ten years older than myself who fell in love with me and my baby. i felt emotinal attraction in the beginning and a bit of sexual, and i had plenty of time to masturbate alone as he worked, and since i was pregnant i produced lots of lubrication so it was easy to fake orgasms. i did it to make him feel good.
but after the baby was born it got harder and harder to find time to have sex. we could no longer lie in front of the tv watching movies and alternately make out and have sex for hours at a time. i was too tired to do it at night and during the day i had the baby. now she is almost two years old and our only chance to do it is while she naps, so it has to be fast before she wakes up. i am crazy to be satisfied but i dont know how to tell him that i have been faking. and since the baby sleeps in our bed at night there is no way to do it there, but the bed is squeaky anyways and he doesnt like to use it in case other people hear. i feel nothing at all anymore. even watching dirty movies or reading a romantic book i feel no sexual arousal at all. my body is cold as ice. i have not felt horny since the last time i masturbated, and that was completely physical, with no fantasy or anything, and that was three months ago. please give me some advice for an herb or pill or exercise or meditation or something!